jane austen's pride and prejudice :))

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, PEIFEN!

pictures taken during the handover party.

HAPPY 18 TH BIRTHDAY,TAN YIFANG ADDER!!
HOPE YOU ENJOYED YESTERDAY'S NIGHT OUT
HAD A FUN TIME WITH YOU :))

try to let go,adder
hope you get what i mean.

the previous template was problematic
so this was what i got.


dad and mum are back from chiang mai!
they were back around 1 am.
got stirred up.
ended up having nasi lemak.
shiok man!

AND...

kym is back too!!
touched down in the morning ytd :)
gonna be a looong holiday.

made a last min change to my stopover
first choice dmsm.
sec choice eldc.
didnt wanna slack for the whole tep
so rather pick up sth new.

photos from 11th nov BBQ

back from boat quay not too long ago.
went to penny black after dinner at
thai express.thanks for the dinner
and cake my pang sisters.despite
the efforts of 'hiding'...

e.g mummts going to meet her mother.

mummts legs are tired so going to
thaiexpress to have a sit.

so tell me why are there still serving
plates even after our dishes are cleared?
we didnt order dessert leh

you girls are one of the best i've ever
had :)) i really enjoyed myself.

today is my happiest day in TEP.
shafinah DIY-ed a mug for me.
really pretty.

mummter surprised me with a bouquet
of flowers and adorable hand written
cards and ive got a lil of 'uncalled' for
stares.but gotta admit it was ok.
and adder got a jay chou CD in her newly
dyed hair.

yes,and amelia wished
'happy belated birthday' for 10 times.
thanks girl!haha!

now that i come to think of it
i fully understand the true essence of
this phrase that kym said...
'forgetting what you already have just
because you don't have something else'

theres so much more stuff for me to
appreciate and be gratified about
rather than other trivial matters
of the heart.

God bless!

thanks for the cards and flowers mummter
it really shocked me
super sweet of you
shall sleep with the flowers tonight
and thanks for taking the trouble to
get up and send me your wishes.

adder,thank you for your jay chou cd
i will listen till my ears emit smoke
or i will memorise the songs and
sing for you.

shafinah,believe me i really like
your DIY mug
its so special and pretty
i placed on my workdesk.

was off to sentosa today!
it was enjoyable because...

fanny wanni and ziling were there

we caught a monkey show
we went kayaking (its SO fun)

and...

we saw chen han wei and his
gay friends :))

and the last thing that made
my day complete and stupefied
was a special powerpoint slides
from kym!

thanks for taking the time to
do up so many slides.considering
that you have got your exams
and essays to do.

tsk tsk
mr no. 8 in the newman
football team
...
...
not bad leh.

'ogling aussie boys in yellow tights'
lols

BBQ at darryl's house
it was pretty fun
but it wouldnt be fun
without the sweeties from
MK0406.

thanks for the presents
darryl christine poh choo bee ling
and zhisian! :))

pooed in the toilet just now
and the two consecutive loos
beside me were doing the same
thing too.

ive found 2 'new impromptu friends'
in addition to desiree and
mrs balakrishnan.lols

another 6 hours to go before the
BBQ at darryl's house.
almost the whole class is coming
cant wait man,at last there is a
gathering for the whole class.

thanks for the wonka,huiying!
hahaha :)

HAPPY 18TH BELATED BIRTHDAY DARRYL!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DAWN!
HAPPY PLAYING WITH THE DRIVER'S TOES MUMMTER!

thank you for the gifts
fanny,wanni and ziling :))

saw shuhua at orchard station.
what a coincidence!
wo men zhen you yuan.

waiting for the 76 snapshots to be
downloaded from fanny.
the process of the 76 great shots
is stupendous so is the size of the file
170703KB.lols.
big file man i tell you.

and i just gave up waiting.

inclusive of candid shots all the way
from cineleisure
the ramen was super spicy.shiok!
to flagging for cab and to esplanade.

the props display at esplanade was
jazzy vintage looking and motley.
and it looks something like this
...


-the trishaw ladies-

-the chopsticks ladies-

-the slippers aunties-

The walls came up as the thoughts went down
To the hush of disparity
Sure we know the problem lies
With some insecurities
But we'll never see eye to eye
As long as our tongues are tied
And we'll be seen as one
Until we find love

In a moment it could happen
we could wake up and be laughing
In a moment it could happen
We could forgive and be happy

It's a shame our world responds to life
As a puzzle in disguise
I wish our course would lead us toward
The peace and loving kind
But we'll never walk hand in hand
Until we let old wounds mend
And we'll never sing songs as one
Until we find love

In a moment some wisedom could be learned
In a moment new voices could be heard
In a moment we could make heads turn
In a moment we could change

i tried posting a comment in a
live journal.

in response to a 'rejection' of
my message,this was what i got..
Please confirm you are a human below

thank you.how creative is that.

one of the few sensible songs
thats so real and down-to-earth
compared to those love songs
like you yearning for me,i yearning
for you kind.you know that sort.

if you wanna find your soulmate
lets hope that he/she is someone
who will...(look at what follows)

adam sandler's i wanna grow old with you

I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...

and so,other activities includes:
.pillow fight
.singing kbox
.making silly faces
.playing 'chopsticks'
.soccer yes?
(shouting 'referee kayu')
.blahblah

*to be continued

Poetry of politics and lost entities
Government is loneliness on this we agree
High are the angels and low I decree
Love only burns when fueled by belief

Home, welcome home
Take a little walk, take a little walk right through our
Home, this is home
Take a little walk, take a little walk right through our... home

Climb up the mountains then slide to the seas
Beauty adores us on this we agree
God is a witness and God is a tease
Pick up your faith, yeah, everybody come with me

sigh.. ever since TEP i realised that
somehow i have been deprived of
fortitude and firmness of purpose;
purpose of life. school.relationships
(sounds sucidal but nah )

and the best part, i dont know why
it just hits me

even the slightest thing that comes
to me,i will get edgy.being cooped
up in the small cell of the call center
is so shitty.

like some pregnant woman having
post natal depression...

feels as if whatever that happens in
machine stops is coming alive
(cos my vell is hexagonal?)
but its sedantary.no purpose.

but i pray that i will adapt to it
asap(WIP).its lucky that there's val
otherwise things here would be
insipid.

and im glad that whenever i read
your blog.i find purpose,meaning in
something that i cant define,kym.
im so glad :))

hope i'll be better!

TEP officially starts today,starting
was kind of bored.taking the same
old monotonous and all but everything
was so much better after the roleplay
aint that bad at all.time flies over here.

after school was so high la.met almost
half of the class there;waited for us.
haha!how sweet of them.i miss all of
them.gave san jie a big bear hug.
didnt see mrs balakrishnan today
sigh.miss 0406

i miss those working days in police
cantonment complex.the security
guards.the napping.the prints.
kelvin.francis.last but not least!
christine's ah lao and her 'yogurt'

had dinner with penny tonight
haha!had a ball of a time laughing
aiya that girl never fail to make me
laugh with her super expressive face

lols.went to her place and sat a while.
you take super good care of your health
yeah.ho ho!mark chay saw your profile?
MICHEAL OWEN SAW MINE
okie la,believe you :p

desiree..my materialistic daughter
*hiaks.. i want to see your ah gua
act again!!!SO ENTERTAINING
i wanna laugh till my insides burst

kym ah!!where are you?dont play
hide and seek with me.come out
of melbourne to spore and play
with me.

lols.ask your friends to come too.
ty.yvonne.mario.lucky.eugene.
yuichi.daisuke.hendri.clement.
the more the merrier.yes,
and bjorn too.

man,i miss you la sayang.
wish you well in your assignements
and exams.must have enough
sleep.dont always burn midnight
oil.take care!

just back from bangkok yesterday
went for TEP briefing today for CRM.
things seems pretty different.in fact
very different.man,im getting the jitters.
everyday 0830-1800.

got acquainted with people from other
classes.they are nice people.then met
up with kaishi irene and ah di sao for
lunch.irene will be at tanjong pagar
most of the time.sometimes at lvl 4.

hope TEP would be fun.
ha ha ha!

what a queer thing.

when i reached home today
i realised i miss bangkok
and the hotel and those many
nice dreams i had there!

what a funny thing.

just 6 days and 5 nights but
somehow a small part of my
heart and mind is tethered
to bangkok.

or maybe its jet-lag?

woke up early in the morning
took the BTS to sathorn where
there is a river cruise that takes
us to chao praya river.cost about
100 bahts(SGD4)

went to this renowned temple
called wat poh.its reputable for
the humongous reclining buddha.
what a sight.had the traditional
massage in the massge school over
there.damn shiok!

met this australian couple,
alan and julie from queensland
they are nice modest and humble
though they looked well to do.

very inquisitive folks who are
are drawn to the sights history
and cultures of bangkok and
singapore.

they asked about the seperation
of singapore and malaysia etc.
lols.now i know why lee kuan yew
and singapore is so popular.

though singapore is small but
she's powerful like a chilli padi
im so proud to be a singaporean!
lols.

later in the night went to MBK
for dinner.ordered something
that i shouldnt,fried noodles
with bamboo shoots.the smell
kind of put me off cos it was
overpowering.

shopped for a while and
managed to get a white capri
had this can of thai milk coffee
yummy and refreshing.

next headed for patpong.
the night market have limited
variety and all those clubs are
the same la.girls dressed in skimpy
outfits dancing.nothing much la.

spent almost the whole morning in
chatuchak.walked quite a bit.thought
my legs were going to give way.
seriously you can cover the clothes
section only if you go there twice.

many good buys there. better still if
you bargain.could get almost everythin'
you want there.towards the end was
too tired to look around.didnt bother
to browse.just have a glimpse here and
there.

saw quite a few of fine-featured thai
chinese blokes.then kana sai they
dress like girls.wasted la.hmmm,
apparently they do not like girls
becos' that means they will be
facing competition.lols.

went to erawan shrine to pray in the
morning;the famous four-faced-buddha
later went chitlom central departmental
store.the prices over there are on a par
with spore.

had swensens at siam discovery centre
its so much cheaper than spore about
half the price or so.

*shakes head
saw two teenage boys at a corner...
some hanky panky going on la.

dropped by siam square.its super
crowded with those teenagers.
didnt manage to shop becos it was
jam packed.its like bugis street
but a few stories high(and like a maze)

dropped at on nut station and went to
tesco lotus.its something like carrefour
and the clothes there are nice good
quality and cheap.bought quite a few
stuff over there.

had dinner at the food court.went to
a night market.got this long sleeve top
from this store tended by a transvestite
(ah gua).he was SO happy that we
bought something from him.

well i dunno really know how to
put it down in words...but he/she
behaves a bit coquettishly.

his face caked with make up was
beaming. a twinkle in his eyes.
the notes in the grip of his finely
manicured and polished nails.
ohhhh..so niang.lols.but he's nice la.

arrived in bangkok in the late morning
traffic jams over there are horrid esp.
during weekdays.then headed for the
guesthouse which we booked.the locality
isnt exceptional so we left our stuff there
and it was time for...

HOTEL HUNTING!

took the BTS skytrain which make things
so much more convenient.and its CHEAP.
100 bahts tourist pass for the whole day;
unlimited rides.went to have a look at MBK
lots of shops but i prefer those markets.

we were fortunate to meet kind souls who
helped us on our way.esp the taxi driver
he spent 3 hours driving us to and fro

it was through him we got to stay in
this hotel,royal parkview.though a little
old it looks grand.

the room is pretty comfortable and the
bed is soooo comfortable.lols.the funny
thing is that i never fail to have sweet
dreams during my 5 nights' stay there!

now i know why people just love
fridays.TGIF!marks the end of
a week of work. feels so good!

had dinner with penny today at
thai express after that went to
watch a band performance by
this local band,modern lipsticks

the drummer is soooooo damn
good.the bassists too.but the
singer was way too bashful la.
the amplifications...WOW

there's this song i heard from
the perfect ten on the ride back
home.its play by james/david
banner(cant rmb la).just sent
me to fits of laughter.cos' its bad.

work have been enjoyable so far
seven more working days to go
then its time for bangkok.good!

mummter is sick.got the bug :/
hope she recovers soon!

i believe in you even if there are
doubts that fills your mind
68 more days to go...

God Bless!

how should i say it?
hmm..impressive i guess.

thats when i heard that a
thirteen year old went up
to switchfoot after their
concert and said,"you saved me"

apparently this bloke was
near suicidal but after listening
dare you to move he refrained

WOW!

God bless!

latest news update on the
grisly find of the horror
the happened at orchard
mrt yesterday.

the victim was a twenty-six
filipina maid and the suspect
was also a filipina maid aged
twenty-nine.

man this is scary.three of
the similar body-dissected
murder case happened
all in one year!

Nickelback:Photograph

its awesome(to me at least)

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red,
And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew he ever went without
The second floor's hard for sneaking out

This is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I come back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh, oh God I...
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found a photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old arcade?
Blew every dollar that we ever made,
The cops hated us hangin out,
They said somebody went and burned it down.

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we'd know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when

Oh oh oh, oh God I...
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it

I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

pooh to piglet:
thank you for the lovely
kinder surprise and thanks
for making my day with the
change of phone language
and wallpaper!!!

i was browsing through the photos
when it suddenly struck me why i
took so long to view them seems
like i cant coordinate too well.

then i realised that i was processing
this in my head "right palm,left palm"
even brought my palm to my face

help!

wonder what that fag is doing
in his 'house' you know.eating
caviar.posing on his lawn for
reporters?

really pray for those people in
america, new orleans.
the situation over there is
bad.devastating i would say.

two dozen premature babies,
children and teenagers stricken
with cancer have to be flown
out of new orleans cos there is
no electricity in the hospital.

its saddening.parents dont
even have a clue where their
kids are.

God bless the people!

it seems like i only get to blog on
fridays and weekends.

yeah superstar.weilian won!! :)
but both are winners.in fact the
last four who got through are!

as always work is fantastic
considering that we read
magazines.music turned on.
vcds screening.what say you?
wont be surprised if we get fired

talked a lot of crap.really crap!
most of it come from desiree.
some from christine.shes not
that quiet afterall.lols.so much
good time spent.

mummter gave me an awful
nick.its called 'ha bi ren' dont
like it but never mind.its part
of the joke :)

i love THAT face of hers [>__< ]
never fail to put me into a
fit of laughter.

work wouldnt be fun without
you auntie mabel and christine
love ya!

oh yes the security guards are
so sweet and nice.never fail to
greet us 'miss PTDs'.even offered
to give us our pass with our fav
numbers!

eighty eight days to your return

God bless!

Train
Drops of Jupiter

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And did you fall for a shooting star
Fall for a shooting star
And are you lonely looking for yourself out there

kym ng.

when i read your mail.damn
freaking happy for you.could
imagine myself clapping and
prancing around like some
idiot in the room.lols.

at last there is closure!still
friends and no harm is done
really admire your guts la.glad
that the letter got to you!hope it
brought you some surprise/joy/...

been working for the past week
its really cold.two jackets aint
warm enough.but the job isnt bad
at all.its all about the temperature!

went for a friend's church play,
two exits,with penny today
its at some theatre-like place
called cornerstone.it was really
nice.awesome i would say

the people are very nice and
friendly.feel absolutely comfortable
(except for some parts) talked
pretty much about conversion
with penny.

didnt know we have something
in common!oh yes!damn
embarassing today la!board the
wrong shuttle bus
(apparently full of senoir citizens)

God bless!

haha!ive got a job!today was the
second day.its pretty slack and
flexible.the people in charge are
nice.real nice.mummter you
should know la huh :) f_____?

still can listen to mp3 while typing
the stuff la.though the room is
freezing cold.no one is there to
supervise us.only me and desiree
are in the huge coldroom.

talked a lot of crap.past.guys.what
we gonna do after poly and stuff.
most importantly...acted silly in
front of the camera.crazy us!
fun man!

had dinner at paragon's ding tai
feng!haha!all thanks to mummter
and her mummy and uncle.lols.
the food was nice.
SUPER FULL

working:no swimming and
gyming :/ but nvm gyming
tmr!oh yeah wedding crashers
is super farny.watched it twice!


God bless!

many stuff running through my
thick skull and it really suck.
suck BIG time.

will you still place great faith
in someone when he time and
time again betray the faith and
trust you hold in him...
(though he is oblivious)

im not too sure about that
its just so fucked up
tell me.

God bless!

reminiscing...

he quoted an example

the train of thoughts i was so tempted
to say right smack in his face

me: could it be me?
its so apt!sounds like me.
just that im serious but you're not

'even the doubt that fills my mind'
i can see it but sometimes i rather
not becos' of the consequences
to bear.

and its all worthless now
lols
kym you should know how this laughter sound

exams are over
HOORAY!
went to town with mummter
today.shes so nice today
(tsk tsk share the 100 bucks k?)

spent quite a bit
a pair of jeans and shorts and
makan.heart pain la.but never
mind should reward myself
after years of mugging

cant wait for sunday!
fireworks here we come
cant wait for tuesday!
sakae with the pang family
i love you!

cant wait for your answer kym!
study hard hor and stop
going to too much movies huh
hee..lols.tc!

p.s:i dreamt we had the same dream.

God bless!

I AM DETERMINED AND RESOLUTE


(repeated to the power of infinity)

kym i dont know why


but ...


I LOVE READING YOUR BLOG


anyhow good luck!

i'm determined and resolute.sure i
am.to forget and carry on.to let go.
i pray that God will give me the
strength to.

im afraid of missing opportunities.
but certain stuff are just meant to
be.to be precise-fated.

i shall pray for you too,my prideful lil'
amina.that you have the courage to
tell or to keep it in you.i know it
bothers the heart.

God bless!

two papers are down and three more
to go.haha.thats cool.im sure we'll be
enjoying the two months in no time.
hmmm hope to find a kinergarten
to work in but neh...*shrugs

went to recruit express today check
out for some job application then
kinokuniya to get a book so into
reading books now.

haha guess the book would help
there's certain things and people to
' let go '.i've promised myself.

been grateful for the many little things
that happened. little bubbly girl etc

kym you get what i mean la.lol.
really really meant a lot.love you!
hope alls well for you back there in
aussie.thanks for being there amina :)

hey the master up there! thank you
so much for everything you gave.
love you lots!

thang gyu fog kuday mugter
ghings gill walk gout find
gotta puk gam efforg.jia you!
the caucasian guy was ohhh lala

hmmm..kamisah is feeling real bad
hey girl if you are reading my blog
do take care.if you wanna talk or
anything i give you my ears.lols
(not literally)

God bless!

how can i not sense it
read his signals
the questions he asked me
now everything makes sense

how could he not tell us
now he's making me worry
like hell.

and now i regret for ticking him
off for asking me questions.
making me irritable.im sorry.

humans are just like that they
wont know how to treasure
until something trigger the
oh-my-god-i-regret button
and im no exception.

im damn fucking worried while
mum is making a mountain out
of a mole hole.whatever...

shits la another four more
treatments.all in all ive got eight
treatments for the wart
time consuming :/

had a weird dream last night
dreamt that i bought a black terrier
for three hundred bucks and my mum
killed it because she found it irritating
my god.some kind of dream it is.lols.

God bless!

carrie underwood-inside your heaven

I've been down, but now I'm blessed,
I felt a revelation comin around,
I guess it's right, it's so amazing,
Everytime I see you, I'm alive,
You're all I got, you lift me up,
The sun and the moonlight,
All my dreams are in your eyes,

(Chorus)
I wanna be inside your heaven,
Take me to the place you cry from,
Where the storm blows your way,
I wanna be the Earth that holds you,
Every bit of air you breathin in, of soothin wind
I wanna be inside your heaven.

When we touch
When we love
The stars line up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally my soul surrenders
The sun and moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

(Chorus)
When minutes turn to days and years,
If mountains fall I'll still be here,
Holding you the day I die,
I wanna be inside your heaven,
Take me to the place you cry from,
Where the storm blows your way,

(Chorus)
Oh yes I do,
When I want to be inside your heaven
Oh yes

was hogging onto the phone for two
hours talking to kym. haha it was nice
la.have been a long time since we chatted
hmmm...gotta hit the books in no time :/

God bless!

got a good news.im so happy for er jie
kaishi.lols.gong xi gong xi.mummter
and i need to go gay pub soon man :/

going to mug soon what can i say
mumblegrumblemumblegrumble
chee

*punches fist into the air
hooray the projects are OVER
man oh man happy or sad?
its mugging time but never mind
ha ha ha

desiree,im MISUNDERSTOOD!
it wasnt me, REALLY
haha theres SHIT under your sole
bawahahaha there you go stepping
around with your dirty foot

MR EUGENE PANG SAID BA CHO MEE
omg is that you lao ba?

kym kym kym
so how so how so how
you told you told you told
sorry cant help it
im high now now that my projects are done
I LOVE YOU! (and bjorn)

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
Cos Ill never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
your beautiful, your beautiful
but i cant escape the truth
I will never be with you.

(La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, La-la-la-la, Laaah)

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

K.A.S.K

man i miss you but im not suffering
from jet lag but i do miss you
the things we do together
the things we share

too bad you cant see my blog for
now since your internet is down
(you're not that technical afterall)
read my old mails and came across
this:

huang JIE..though u may be older
than me but if there is anything, bad
or gd, tell me ok. then ur huang mei
will call her tai-jian to hantam those
huai dan (if it is bad) or prances
about with a flower in his hair
(if it is gd) ha ha ha...

anyways thanks for the offer;the
long distance call but i thought
things are going fine for now
but thanks la mother cow
i like the tai-jian part.lols.

drenched in the rain again
bitter and sour
the drops strained the body
frustrated and exhausted
the little body in a tempest

the wind woke the senses
the real the hurt unveiled
its time to let go
oppressive and jaded
the little body in a tempest

a hand extended and warmth
washed over the little body
oh child please dont cry
grateful and comforted
the sheltered body in a tempest

frustration washed away
exhaustion flushed away
no more moods
but smile and laughters
no more burdens
but gifts and surprises

this path will do great
when God closes a door
he opens a new window
so full of love and happiness

im glad that i have let it slipped away
because you yourself allowed it to
now theres closure im happy

somehow the uncertainty is blinded
somehow the ambiguity is drowned
somehow the enigma is deafened

::nothing but kula::

what can i say but plenty thanks to
you,mico.haha!it made my day.
haven heard from you and her for
a long long time.take care!









God bless!

grey skies it is
stretched over the horizon by day
so blinded and clouded it is
pour it may

grey skies it is
stretched over the horizon by day
so blinded and clouded it is
thunderous it may sound

blind the uncertainty
drown the ambiguity
deafen the enigma

someday God would clear it all

just back from the airport.havent been
there for a long long time.surprisingly
theres pretty much people there.haha!
went there to send kym(amina) off.

while im typing now bet you should
be in the plane or boarding it.hope this
time if you happen to approach a german
bloke lets hope he aint snobbish huh.

shook clements parents' hands though
i dunno them but they seem pretty nice.

feel so pai seh.after sending you off i told
your mum i'll make a move(take bus)
then she said aiyo dun be silly la we are
going back together what.lols.

your folks.elva.BJORN. are nice and
warm.thanks for the ride.and do take

care huh.study hard too.hope everything

goes well for you.will fen be there.hmm..

God bless!

im sorry if i made you a fool for crying
in the bus.pai seh ah if people think you
are some emotional crackpot.but ian
wright still look spastic in those photos.
thats hmm... probably a fact :/

kym i miss you kym i miss you.
kym i love you kym i love you.

"i miss you like crazy,every min
everyday."

"if you leave me.you will take away
the biggest part of me."

im the greatest fan of your life.
all dedicated to you.'rou ma' enough.
obviously im a lil cranky but heck
its for kymberly alexander sloana
killiney ng. haha.im the lil irritant.
never fail to annoy you

fen and him make good brothers.
(i dont see any link but,yeah,period)
not a nervously LOLS!

take care "oh-but-of-cos" kymmie

man that bloke is a fugging moron.
heartless creature.and i mean it.
CREATURE.

im wasting my time away.having retail
now.its BORING.am i going to flunk my
retail.hmm..*wonders. hope not.

mummter is so mad over energy.so so
mad.she keeps filling christine in with
energys news.crazy woman.but i still
love her cos' shes my mummter.

sorry to say.but exams are around the
corner.like 3 weeks.gotta start mugging.
man oh man.

haha!bought famous amos from sams
friend.got a leadership thingy on wed
hope its fun.looking forward to it.

sigh.my dearest 'maid' is leaving for
australia :( cant bitch to her about
our lives.haha.i will miss her like
crazy.shes wonderfully drawn
and perfectly made to me.always.

Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be
i'll be the greatest fan of your life

God bless!

first week of school.cant help but feel
real tired and sleepy in lecture and
tutorials.i need a gym and a pool.
just cant wait for fridays.

one thing for sure zhisian is getting
on my nerve he keeps bugging me with
the number 89.he got a problem with
my bag.

went to meet up penny on tuesday
at northpoint.haha got her a book
for birthday.and i played time crisis
three.surprising man.

work is piling up so gotta do tutorials
and projects.the motivation behind
these:two months of holidays after
exams.

PS:see desiree i updated my blog

God bless!

it was rightfully wrong
so right that its wrong
so right that it hurts(?)
so ive chosen to not be
jaded and contemplative
over this.anyway i dun
really see that coming.
my claim was never
true.so period!

God bless!

:: naivity::
::rough day::

good night it was yesterday.walking
around yishun.sitting at the jetty and the
park chatting about melbourne.family.
friends.boys.man was funny when bjorn's
actions were carefully mimicked.such a
sweetheart.

lols. great talking late into the night.thats
neat.haha!boy,we have certain stuff which
are pretty much in common.man! it sure
can kill.hahas.so why bother.whythink
of it.none was directed to me.

closure:wasnt on purpose or something
anyhow thanks for playing cos' it made
me happy.

God bless!

::mr&mrs smith::

went to the movies with kym yesterday.
(pei fu you man.gotta rush for it)
watched mr&mrs smith.it was really nice.
a mix of emotions.sad.funny.sarcastic etc
seven half out of ten!finished at eleven
why am i not surprise that brad pitt was
seperated from jen.lol

hmm..would have gone for supper if
i could but too bad.pretty sure folks would
nag.haha! brother is back from the ship.
kind of happy cos i miss him...anw congrats
kym you really got the thing in you man.
ninety one..anyhow happy for you.sounded
so high when i heard your voice mail. =p

was hooked onto this site for these few days
its a story titled in the game of love.took me
around ten hours to read it.man!its addictive
you could cry.smile.laugh.the author is talented
thanks adder!great one.

God bless!

::pup kula::

thanks to mic!she's a norfolk terrier.she's

beautiful,ain't she.i like her.haha!

::one down::

got lots of projects but i'm sure we'll be
able to handle it.due to projects been
sacrificing time to swim,gym,catch up.
had rtm presentation.pretty impromptu.
but had no regrets about it.

to piao piao's good friend;
there are people around you who think
you as an undaunted person.strong.
unwavering.funny.sweet.confident.
unpretentious.pretty.etc.but i hope
that what happened recently will
not haunt you or 'disintegrate' you

as part of the sentosa clique i hope you
can be the strong.stable.protective(of frenx)
hard.unpretentious(unless u tell me canon
got personality la)canon,da pao in fort siloso.
when you joke i want you to send us roaring
with laughter. so thunderous like the canon
shooting out the canonball.lols. my noble
attempt of a personification

::speciallyfor you::

hey kym just got this sudden urge to get
to you as soon as possible after reading it.
the feeling is bad aint it.just know that i'm
always there.you've been there for me
remember.so whatever stuff you've to tell
me just shoot it out.

this "you being there for me and me being
there for you "thing hold no boundaries.
so no matter you are in africa,britain,
greenland or mars.there'll be
no boundaries ever.

if you're scared or confused just remember
this
"For He shall give His angels charge over
you,to keep you in all your ways./In their
hands,they shall bear you..."

love you always. =)

::woonder..ful::

first day of school.haha!as usual i dread
walking in the long covered walkway.
but nvm.chatted lots.crapped lots.
laughed lots.the marketing management
tutor was funny.but probably overdo it.
the ict application lecture was full house.
but aint that bad.

the fun one.retail&travel management.
it was mr eugene pang hor,shaf.haha!
it was soo sooo fun and 110% laughable.
but apparently zhisian annoyed her
big-time la. zhisian ah...haiz gotta sleep
along the corridor for the whole month.
anyhow mr eugene was quite nice.

till then...
tata!

::dum dee dee dum::

went to cineleisure for movie yesterday
with ziling,fanny&wanni!haha!been ages
since all of us meet up.its a dumb+funny
show(s-dairy).oh yeah theres a new
show called kingdom of heaven.got orlando
bloom!so kymm...ya?had long john.laughed
like mad with my laughing partners.
crapped lame jokes.took prints.was a
really wonderful day =)

::pissed::

watched the uefa champion league for
the past few nights.bayern munich vs
chelsea was good.but the liverpool and
juventus match sucks.nil nil lor.woke
up at eleven.went swimming with ziling
.damn unlucky lor.her whole bag was
STOLEN.bye bye to her handphone and
important document.theres this ch 8
actor who witnessed the stealing-process.
asked us if our stuff were stolen.

suppose to go gym after that but didnt
go in the end.went down to the police
station instead to describe how the
person look like la.ziling,her papa&
weiting were there.guess this is not the
first time this kind of thing happen at
the pool.the lifeguards werent surprised
who could have done it.to the thief:@!#%
knn! so much fuss money involved for
the replacement of cards.


till then...
tata!

::bushed::

went to the gym with ziling&wanni.havent
been out with them for some time.its so
good.gymed for two hours.tried out new
stuff.kind of exhausted la.but nvm.joked
&chatted for awhile.probably gonna take
up something new with ziling.haha!cant
wait for sunday.going out for movie with
fanny. =)

heard that theres an increase in movie
tics.crazy la.keep increasing.pay so low
somemore.who would want to watch a
one and a half hr movie for nine bucks.
dumb.think it would increase piracy lor.
need some brains? anyway tutored my
cousins after gym.slept in the bus.
nothing new.going back to You&Me.

till then...
tata!

::photos from the chalet::

::shermin.shafinah.kaishi.joyce.me::

::the camera snapped us::

::five of the five::

::chachos taste good even if you're smiling::


::squeeze people::

::lifehouse::

fav band =)

::jason&guitar::

Lifehouse -You&Me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you 

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right 

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of 

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you 

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive 

::blah blah blah::

woke up around ten.went swimming.
swam for an hour.quite shiok la.but mr
sunny didnt really turn up today.walked
to northpoint.get my pants altered.bought
laksa.yummy*.its famous.kind of looking
forward to school.since there might be
something to look forward to.haha! =)

till then,
tata!

::happy birthday irene!::

haha!was irenes birthday yesterday.the
outing was fun.thanks irenes mama&
papa.first went to kbox @cineleisure.
kaishi is such a good sister la.shes
worried about her sister being home
alone.so she cried.made a door hanger&
cookies for irene.and desiree got cakes&
flowers.neat!

after we got out of cineleisure i got a free
kotex sample lor.the packaging was
attractive. irene got a perfume for her
mum and i got a free green apple from
the dkny perfume counter.lols.left it in
irenes paper bag.shopped for awhile.
got two shirts.getting really guilty for
spending so much.

after that went to marche for dinner.had
crepes,waffles,sphagetti,pizza,vege..was
so full and we acted like fools taking photos.
duh.wanted to go to some ulu pub la.but
luckily cant find it.phew! haha!walked to
plaza sing.saw twenty-three moo moo cows!

talked alot of stuff with kaishi!.it was great
.really really great =) went to gelare to talk
somemore.it was also great.really really
great =) lols.kind of tired la.didnt manage
to catch two and half hours of wwe.too
tired la!

till then...
tata!

::chalet was fab =)::

lols..many things happen la.saw guys
playing some silly games in the pool.all
in trunks.and all of us just sat in a row
.gawking at them and poking fun la.shaf
saw a yan dao la.haha!adder&shaf were
drunk.shaf puked and adder was superbly funny.

[*laughs:"i wanna go&find desiree and
scold her...she took my vodka"]
[*laughs:"i wanna go swimming pool"]
[*laughs:"im wearing aunties panties"] lols

she was so mad.kept knocking around and
kent had to splash water on her face.
went for pool&ktv.after that went for
shower then off to seven-eleven two,
morning la.received results around three
,morning.then everyone like kan chiong
spiders la.watched soccer!

liverpool 2 juventus 1.went outside to talk
after the match.lazed around.adi told ghost
stories.did not sleep at all.went to the lobby.
dozed off a lil while and then got chased by
security guard.

talked about stuff&all in the "bright" morning.
lied down but cant sleep.the feeling of not
sleeping is damn shiok man.off to arcade.
talking session with jasmine sin ee&drinking
clique.it was cool!slept for an hour.woke up
with a throbbing headache.watched some
v.most of them went for ktv after food.

drank some c&h.got a lil high.know what
was happening but was just muttering
rubbish.zhisian,adder and kent laugh
some more lor. giddy.but the feeling was
kind of ok.showered and watched ghost
movie.but it was not scary at all lor.we
were laughing all the way!watched soccer
again.chelsea 4 bayern munich 2.suppose
to wake desiree up.but sleep so soundly
how to call?chatted at the lobby till six
am.cool!security guard told us some
spooky stuff about the chalet.packed up
a bit and left around seven.

fun fun fun

till then..
tata!

::you always learn::

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn
You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn
courtesy of kym,love you to itsy bitsy bits!

::partially sprained necky::

woke up at one-thirty noon.slept at three
this morning after watching wwe.it was
that damn good k.ha!too bad i dun really
have the habit of staying up for soccer.
so kym..haha!went for dim sum yesterday
with cousins&relatives @ toa payoh safra.
*yummy. felt as if i ate a cow though.

after that went for ktv.it was nice.my
two darling cousins.yarling&huiling.haha!
remember i was so fond of crying last
time with the "dont friend you" thingy
going on.lols.its funny when you think of
it.secret meeting place in the toilet eh.

till then...
tata!

::tired but happy:: =)

shopping with desiree yesterday!!was
nothing but fun.but legs were tired from
walking.cant find any nice Ts.but got
erm,two shorts yesterday.spend pretty
much.very xing tong (heart pain) la.
happy with the buys though.fallen for a
3 quarts.but too bad.same old reason.
no bucks.

desiree got a gn skirt.cute.got a ripcurl
purse-like thingy.it was very nice. like it.
beta be careful,fellow friend of the curry
puff.she got a foxy.no,i mean FOX black
quarts.desiree smell her shorts.lols.the
opposite.go figure!took a bus home.smelly.
fun fun fun.

watched final episodes of 2 channel u shows
.nice.this season of survivor is the best.
ulong lost 6 immunity STRAIGHT.now
left with bobby jon&steph.ian ian ian.the
dolphin trainer. God bless everyone

till then...
tata!

::whoopey whoopey:: =)

took 965 wit desiree then took a train
to irenes house.off to irenes place again
yesterday.was onboard 965.there were
these two couples.damn funny lor.they
are friends la.then the guys were compet-
ing with each other.to see who is closer
to their gf.lols.so cute.desiree&i imitated
them.winks*

met shaf,irene&kaisi.desiree made cookies.
kaisi made brownies&i made muffins.all
were nice.shaf&desiree behaved so crazily.
cant stop laughing.made spastic looks.haha!
went jurong point after that.kaisi&shaf
acted like some girls from taiwan&china.
speak with that unauthentic&forceful accent
.lols.man,it was so farny.really enjoyed
my day!

yeah,onboard the train shaf taught us a
weird trick to make one arm longer than
the other.hmmm...batteries are EXPENSIVE.
hehe!thanks mummter for playing wa jie
for me over&over again.

till then...
tata!

"Fear does not have any special power
unless you empower it by submitting
to it." nice one.quoted from my friend's
blog.haha!

::hehe.. :: =)

making cook...no muffins now.having so much fun doing it.beams* tutored cousins today.played hide&seek with them.duh!lols.met desiree for dinner.bought muffin ingredients .sat at the bus stop "kiaking" cornflakes. it was fun!

guess the sumatra earthquake was pretty bad.felt tremors this morning.was watching tv.felt giddy suddenly lor.was wondering why there were some squeaky noises.thought there was erm..ghost.haha!but was actually the shaking of a not -properly screwed chair i was sitting on.god bless everyone!

till then...
tata!

:: one of the best that i've ever had::

::*yawns ::

am sleepy now.hee..went to the gym
with darryl today.desiree and shafinah
couldnt make it.next time k :) ran on
the treadmill.giddy.nearly puked.yucks!
lols.went to catch the son of mask.dumb
show la.but funny though.'cos of the baby.

d bought a nautica shirt.round off 34
buckeroos.argh!!rich kid!!off to amk lib
to get my book.man am disappointed lor.
one quarter of the pages gone.da bao
satay bee hoon for dad&mom.suprisingly
they are ok.but who knows la.

p.s:desiree has a long-winded and
queer way for saying "i miss you"
,ask her!

till then...
tata!

::whoopey again:: =)

hahas!i'm high now after making cookies.
erm..no,muffins.went northpoint to buy
the ingredients.made them in the night.
my brudder said it was nice because it
was very chocolatey.but its suppose to
be cookies NOT muffins.its soft inside,
not hard. some parts were burnt.heee
probably make some more tomorrow
morning!cant wait for wrestlemania21.:(

till then....
tata!

::sweet smiles::

::two sweeties::

::pose for the cam::

::nice trees and gals::

::greens&babes::

photos@sentosa

::the clique::

::happy after eating::

::say cheese::

::love shaffie::

::spas looks::

::whoopey:: =)

went irenes house yesterday to help her
out with her photos.help to decorate
them.its so nice! ahem* hope david will
see my artwork la. kaishi was so crazy
la.she cant stop laughing&laughed for
no reason.irenes brudder is so cute.think
desiree is in love with him.aiya.aint any
wonder.lols.

went to eat zhu chao for dinner.ended
up making a mess after meal.bought
pooh stickers.so damn cute!desiree and
kaishi bought cookie mixture and pizza
ingredient.yummy*

haha! tsk tsk,desiree likes a yan dao
father in the train hor.heee...

survivor palau is phew*! NICE.ian ian ian
.ulong on a streak of immunity challenge
losses.hahas!

till then...
tata!