kbox-ing again yesterday morning and monopoly session with penny and company!haha..i owe pens 14 thousand dollars.bleahs..anyway she looked like a deer in the headlight in one of the photos.so lost.all thanks to bro,hard gay is sickening-ly, perverted-ly and annoying-ly funny.

not so good feelings are easy to dissemble but not the happy ones! now that exams are over, i'm savoring every minute i have with mummter and those that i'm (went) going out with (er jie,bala,bee ling). thank you all,i enjoyed myself yesterday and today.not to be missed is the entertainment derived from the exchange of banter over xiang xiang aka xiao mei with mummter's friend.i'm so happyyy(:

by the way do you see bottles of nail polish on the table in the third photo?well manucurist cum karaoke enthusiast tan ying ying attacked bala's nails, her nails and my thumb,decorating them (with fake diamonds) with great gusto.if only those were real diamonds.heheh.



also had a belated day celebration with ziling and wanni at pizza hut.been years since we meet together.too bad fan couldnt make it :/ but there's always next time. i hope i can go out jalan jalan with daddy tmr(otherwise when i start ipp,there isnt much time to talk nonsense and ka jiao him) despite my penchant for a game of monopoly with pen and co(its uniquely singapore version okay).

the only think for me to look forward to monday is 7 pm at bugis.i cant wait. because it means another opportunity to see mummter,bala and whoever who's interested in going!anyone?anyone?haha!

i wanna go up and say,"我喜欢你，我爱你。。。嫁给我吧！"to xiao mei.
but better not pin too much hope on seeing him,have a 'neutral anticipation'.
因为我不喜欢一场欢喜一场空的感觉。

the impending apprehension of ipp is undoubtedly unnerving but like my kym say,i can sail through it.and i have to believe that too.otherwise how am i going to go through the 11 weeks.i'll call desiree up everyday to 诉苦.

p.s. kymmie i saw mardiana!she's doing fine(:

其实把心里的事憋在心里一点都不好受

我也不晓得为什么会这么难把心里话说出来

总之胸口很沉闷就对了，一点都不好受。

现在想起来，我觉得自己超瞎，为什么偏偏会喜欢他。

气死人了！！！


往好的方面看，小美要来了。

但不知道有机会看到他吗。

thank you mummter for listening and encouraging!im gonna miss you during ipp.bleahs!i know it sucks.and friday too!if you dont 'pry',i wouldnt say too.dont you realise that as time goes by by(unlike in year 1 & 2) .we'll just talk about that sort of stuff without prying.(at least it applys to me).too prideful,hard and reluctant to just say (:

and of course kym!how can i ever forget you.i text you and you immdeiately 'send your rescue'.thank you for your encouragement and belief!i have to sail through this,i know.this is the last thing that i want it to happen.but who knows :/

我已经很坚持要放手，可是为何要这么迟疑呢？

为什么还是这么固执呢，我自己也不晓得。

heaps of projects to be completed!
and the end of the week is coming
i have got no idea what i have been doing.

did something silly today.
called desiree and we started conversing.
no, i mean shouting and giggling over the
phone like some old senile women.

outta!

I wonder at eighteen what is expected of us.Yes,mature.Think like an adult.Fast-paced.Be considerate.Think for yourself (what's the trade off?) .

Yet eighteen can be dangerous.Ambitious.Intrepid.Do more than you can,maybe.The desire gnawing at you,to outgrow spawned by e-i-g-h-t-e-e-n.Poring over far-fetched issues albeit that you are still yards away.Future maybe.Thus,losing your foothold.

Does eighteen means you shed the boisterous teen image and erect a composed,understanding,intelluctual image like some young Victorian woman.So ya ya.

And does eighteen and the consecutive years means living up to expectations.Your own and others.Hoarding the inner you?Challenging you to keep up and salvage what you may be at risk of losing?

To change,yes.Yet the conflicting thing is,if you want to sustain the 'impression' of your lovely dearest, so how do you change?

One day an answer will be unravelled.

Dinner was great last night,such a spread.Joined by Kym's cousin and her kids.Thanks for the dinner,Kym.Even though Bjorn was all chattery and inquisitive through out I didn't mind at all.It had been quite a long time since I have seen him.

Well, he has grown lankier and he is wearing his glasses now.But still as handsome as before la.Lols.Still remembered vividly that he asked me in a very polite yet determined manner,"Natalie,you know how to play gameboy?I teach you to use the gears?Can you ask my mummy?"Ahh...

Elva has grown taller and slimmer I reckon.Still as considerate, helpful and polite as ever.A good host.And Kym ah,I got to witness Bjorn rooted to the floor when that particular TV commercial played.

Amina dearest, still the same,always the "contained yet endearing" daughter,sister and friend.Still pretty stoical at times.Not so endearing towards children("Never mind,you don't love me...").Getting hyped up when a gory scene of Alien and Predator appears.Lols.

Wish you good luck with er hem(he shall not be named).
Let's meet up before you fly back (:

happy birthday penny aunty! (: haha,thanks for your invitation it was real
fun today man.good food,good company.no doubt about that!anyway i will
pester you relentlessly for the million dollars unless you let me win
monopoly?

went for a picnic with pen at pasir ris park.though it was sultry,the company
and fun made up.soccer. frisbee.cycling. lorry-rides.hoho!ciao.

after immersing myself in express boy i dare say that i'm suffering
from withdrawal syndrome! heaps of projects and where am i
going to start?

ten more days and my 'royal sister' is back!

there's no more tagboard.find that my blog look somewhat clean
without a tag lols. but you guys can always treat the comments column as
the new tag.

just click on the empty barn or lost lamb (:

people need affirmation and that's when faith comes in.
it gives people something to believe in and move on.
it comforts the soul and heal the wound.

and recently,there's been a lot of what-ifs questions churning.

i am being coerced to blog in a different situation .

the main reason . . .
mr gsc is so so so out of point . he keeps singling people out to do things
for him.just now, da jie really tio chua cos he cocked his head right
beside her . she said she saw all his pores (to add on , blackheads ,
whites heads , dead skin cells blah blah blah)

getting edgy now. bah :/
save me !

p.s : see da jie i spaced every punctuation mark .

when dispirited, in lieu of thinking the customary negative thoughts
that sends a surge of desiccation right up your gut, run the reel of
blissful moments that can make you smile to yourself and sustain
the slightest light possesed.i guess that will suffice (:

::wide grin plastered over face::

photos from the chalet, as promised (:

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20
people. Okay tag at least 5 people...

1. Kym
2. Desiree
3. Penny
4. Ziling
5. Irene
6. Kaishi
7. Shafinah
8. Jeryl
9. Kelvin
10. Dawn
11. Jean
12. Amanda
13. Darren
14. Kent
15. Jiabi
16. Mico
17. Chris
18. Adder
19. Max
20. Valerie


1. How did you meet 14?
Same class ah. He's part of this pseudo family tree, my grandson.

2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
I will not be who I am today. I would be total emotional nutcase.
No one would hear me ranting and air my angst etc.

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
A big NO , because their characters are poles apart.

4. Did you ever like 19?
No. I bug him for Photoshop and PSP only, lols.

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
No, cause my er jie is attached!

6. Describe 3.
She looks like a human and she had her trigus pierced (always kena hoot).
A great companion and Happy Meal bud. Because of her jokes and
nonsense, I always giggle.And, she extorts money from me from time to time.

7. Do you think 8 is attactive?
Hmmm, I don't know.Because we are acquaintances, don't know him well enough.

8. Tell me about 7.
She is a very thoughtful friend. She would gladly listen to your sorrows
and try her best to sympathise and empathise.But behind her,lies her story.

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
Hmmm..how can I say. Because I only met her family on her wedding.

10. What's 8's favourite?
I dont' know.

11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
I will tell her, I like you too. Because you can feed me with your lovely
poems.

12. What language does 15 speak?
Mandarin, English and Hokkien.

13. What is 13's worst habit?
Haha, I don't know. But he speaks like kopi tiam uncle,lols.

14. How old is 16 now?
His birthday is not over, so he's 19.

15.When's the last time you talked to 13?
Pretty long, ever since the last day of the chalet.

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
Haha,she's a Energy fanatic. And her favorite is Edy Hsiao (Ah Di)

17. Would you ever date 4?
Unless I'm a lesbian.

18. Would you ever date 7?
Again, unless I'm a lesbo.

19. Is 15 single?
Yes

20. What is 10's last name?
Tan

21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
Lols,we are already in a serious relationship with our husbands.

22.What school does 3 go to?
Thames at Jurong.

23. Where does 6 live?
Jurong

24. What's your favourite thing about 5?
She's adament,not easily waivered.

25. Have u seen number 1 naked?
Haha, just like her answer...No

5 people to tag...
1.Penny
2.Desiree
3.Irene
4.JiaBi
5.Mico

to be at ease i have to really really let go.relinquish unnecessary thoughts
and prioritise.afterall,new semester new 'resolutions'. back on track!

over to ziling's house yesterday to celebrate her birthday.it was super re
nao.nice happy family.haha,great catching up with some of my old school
pals too.great to see that all are doing well.and,there was my favorite boy,
rui rui(ziling's cousin).he's super cute.like a small adult.well-versed in
answering back at people.gonna be a smart boy next time (:

celebrated ziling's birthday today at cartel.haha,it was pretty good
considering that all four of us haven gathered together for so long.but the
food wasnt fantastic.will not visit there again unless its for dessert!

here are some shots:



love this photo of wanni,so deep in thought.great candid.



fanny and i,purported to look at the other angle.



nice light.nice environment.nice ladies (:


- relish the good stuff

huang jing, i miss you and haven forgotten about you.i miss you,amina! (:
now i spot another similarity between you and your lover ian wright.
haha,daredevil wright came down to singapore for the world summit
gourmet.one of the question was:

"but don't you eat anything proper to keep yourself healthy?"

ans: i eat so much rubbish all my life that my gut is quite hardened and i don't
get ill that much at all.stuff like fruit is boring.

LOLS.

back from aloha changi!really enjoyable man.all thanks to the company of jean,kaishi,irene,mummter,bala,michelle,chin fong,ming xiang,darren,jiabi,
fraser etc.the chalet was way up the hill and segregated.apparently,it seems
like we were the only inhibitants up the hill with 3 cats.lols.

day one:

we had BBQ and as usual there were leftovers of chicken wings!talked a lot,
especially with jean.haha,always feel contented and satisfied after
conversations with her,not solely because of gossips eh.but mummter and i
feel loaded anyway (:

headed to the car park opposite the old meridien and saw a few trans.ming
xiang,the usual joker, was supposedly to be one of them,but to no avail cos
the trans were voluptous,cant compete la.had supper then headed back to
the chalet.mahjong session and napping for some.

mummter and i kena forfeit.lost to jia bi and ming xiang in bluff! (a tag team
game,apparently) and the good old jiabi suggested that we lay each other's
leg on our shoulder and caress it,stroke it and say 'sayang sayang'.lols.

day two:

went for brunch with michelle,chin fong and jiabi.had roti prata then da bao
back for those sleeping.plans for the day:settled on going to pulau ubin to
cycle then beach volleyball.gotta take a two seater cos i cant ride a bicycle.
luckily got jiabi to tong pang or i'll be playing with the stray dogs.lols.it's FUN
FUN and MORE FUN.

heavy downpour when we arrived at the beach.all of us were downright
drenched,despite the shelter.wells,with the presence of irene,darren and
ming xiang time was fully utilised with impromptu games and quizzes.up
till now i cant figure the 'black magic'.

waited for about an hour when rain became drizzle.then cycled our way back
to the kiosk.went to the hawker centre to have some hot drinks and da bao
dinner back.jiabi and ming xiang bandanna-ed their heads and acted like
kopi uncle.damn funny man!

while we were en route to the chalet,one passer by quipped,"wa lao,what
happened to them (us)".why?cos most of us were stained with muddy water
marks.shall post a photo of max's shirt if i have it.

we went to tampines kbox to meet mummter and bala at ten odds.sang till
one when we were supposed to sing till 3.cheats!nevertheless,the session
was pretty fine,considering that most of us were pretty worn out.bala and
fraser singing were good!

then,mahjong session again!seems so different from the computer game.
but learnt a bit of the basics from ming xiang.then went to la la land with
michelle and si jie.but was interrupted.

in the midst of our sleeps,a clown or two attempted to scare us with the
sudden presence of stacks of pillows and blankets stacked neatly on top of
us.have you forgotten that we have two of this five senses called the sense
of touch and hear?

lols.anyway got up and played cards with them.one was a 'bluff' game the
other was some number game.forfiet:3 scoops of watermelon.haha!i liked
that card session!last but not least...

I LOVE THE FUN ! (:

-relinquish the thoughts

the two lovebirds.one named penny one named jacquelyn.nice nursery rhyme!



and the other named natalie!



ouch!birdie penny scratched me out of the picture.



i owe aunty tardy 925 bucks,all thanks to the game of monopoly. see she's full of glee except me and jacquelyn.


i thought i was winning so i happily posed.


yay!qi ai blew out all the nineteen candles!

went to dawn's church on saturday with the company of max. it was a pretty nice,cosy environment.the people there are nice and the music was brilliant.the fervor and enthusiasm of the throng of youths were infectious (but somehow i felt out of place a little,ha.)

max was expressionless throughout the whole service.as usual la. anyway dawn thanks for inviting me.it was a wonderful experience (:

back not long from a friend's birthday celebration.one word.enjoyable. we looked at photos and reminisced about our secondary school life. man i miss it.official opening,crushes,friends,beijiing trip everything! to my utmost shock,i didnt know i had a primary two class photo at my friend's place.OMG!

luckily there's aunty tardy around otherwise things wont be that fun.your boobs and ass are gonna be 'deflated' be jac man!lols.speaking of her,i owe her $925 for monopoly :/

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, QI AI.

bought 'we need to talk about kevin' from kino.earlier on was soooo tempted to get lifehouse latest CD.got so many books in mind to buy!of which most are along the line of the da vinci code.gonna get hold of 'a boy called it' and 'the curious incident of the dog in the night-time.' going on a reading rampage soon.lols.

P.S.happy meals again penny,till we get a clone of pink annie.

- pliablility equals gullibility?

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Natalie!

1. If every star in the Milky Way was a grain of salt they would fill Natalie.
2. The first toy product ever advertised on television was Mr Natalie Head!
3. Over half of Americans are officially Natalie!
4. Peanuts and Natalie are beans.
5. Julius Caesar wore a laurel wreath to cover up Natalie!
6. Olympic badminton rules say that Natalie must have exactly fourteen feathers.
7. Moles are able to tunnel through 300 feet of Natalie in a day.
8. Red Natalie at night, shepherd's delight. Red Natalie at morning, shepherd's warning.
9. Natalieomancy is the art of telling the future with Natalie.
10. Banging your head against Natalie uses 150 calories an hour.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

the good old times

i have mastered the right way to play puzzle fighter today!
pestered jiabi to let me win,so he won 12 rounds and i won 2.
all thanks to the guidiance of my shi fu, jon.then i won steven!

6 months ago, i dread the start of TEP now i dread the end of TEP.
i will miss everyone and the friends i have made.people who had
been great company like val dawn shuhua jean amanda max jiabi
minzhen and many more.thanks for everything!i will miss all of you.

thank you mummter for your honey cornflakes! (:

P.S. max where is my photoshop 7 ?

jason michael wade.lifehouse's frontman.
a stupendous vocalist, guitarist and songwriter.
that accounts for my compulsive obsession for lifehouse.
without a doubt.



- utter intoxication

mummter i pray that everything will be fine for you.
many things have been happening it seems eh.
realllly hope to catch up soon.take care babe!

man, simply cant wait for my block leave to arrive!
heard and learnt quite a far bit today and im starting
to get some bearings somehow.shall stop those
hopeless 'ponder-ings'. haven been catching up
with some of my friends.gotta take action soon! (:

3 important dates for the month of april.
9th april.22nd april.28th april.you know who you are.
i cant wait to celebrate that special day with you.

- confounded no more.

been addicted to lifehouse man.they are sooo damn good.
love their songs to the core. might consider getting their
latest album,lifehouse. here are the boys (:



many things been happening lately.good bad.a blend of
everything.but i do hope everything will go back to
normal and that all of us will be as close.crazy.cranky
as before.that explains my anticipation for classical.
theres so much that i miss.

kym i miss you :/and the way you always phrase my
thoughts so flawlessly.facing problems are not the
toughest,but more often than not,its the implications that
we fear to face.

- clear the mist of the delusional mind.

lifehouse;blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

love the musical ensemble.and of cos,lifehouse!my fav alternative rock band (: from take me away to breathe to you and me.ha,reminds me so much of ... nah its been long. time to focus on the present!

- erracticism to cease.

love.lust.infatuation.
how do you differentiate them?
its tough.

been a week and quite a bit of stuff happen.
well i believe everything will work out soon.
but on a lighter note have been more clear
headed after chatting with kym on sun (:
at least i have gotten over.

got a C for dmsm
yikes :/

God, grant me the
Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.

reminiscing reunion with mummter on the phone.
it was great and reminded me of those good old
times.haha..

rolling naked to changi airport to receive yuan bing.
exchanging slippers for blueyellow adidas.
a breakup just one month after me.
the same mindset of relationship.
making our fantasies "come true" by acting.
almost always facing a timely obstacle together.
comittment-problem counterparts.
who could think of that but us!
our inside secrets!

how i wish i could be there :/
take care of yourself in taiwan and enjoy.
mingle around.
take care of bala.
love you mummts!

this is debilitating.
i dont need a heavy heart.
all i need is a clear mind and to think straight.
yes.real straight.

aye, i'm waivered by those tales and judgements set on you
and i'm greatly disappointed in you.this isn't the first time
that i feel this way.but i guess i'm right.frivolous.flirt.frolic.
fits your bill.if you ever come to realise that i'm referring to you,
sorry if it came as a thrust.i hardly know you anymore.

busy`

jane austen's pride and prejudice :))

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, PEIFEN!

pictures taken during the handover party.

HAPPY 18 TH BIRTHDAY,TAN YIFANG ADDER!!
HOPE YOU ENJOYED YESTERDAY'S NIGHT OUT
HAD A FUN TIME WITH YOU :))

try to let go,adder
hope you get what i mean.

the previous template was problematic
so this was what i got.


dad and mum are back from chiang mai!
they were back around 1 am.
got stirred up.
ended up having nasi lemak.
shiok man!

AND...

kym is back too!!
touched down in the morning ytd :)
gonna be a looong holiday.

made a last min change to my stopover
first choice dmsm.
sec choice eldc.
didnt wanna slack for the whole tep
so rather pick up sth new.

photos from 11th nov BBQ

back from boat quay not too long ago.
went to penny black after dinner at
thai express.thanks for the dinner
and cake my pang sisters.despite
the efforts of 'hiding'...

e.g mummts going to meet her mother.

mummts legs are tired so going to
thaiexpress to have a sit.

so tell me why are there still serving
plates even after our dishes are cleared?
we didnt order dessert leh

you girls are one of the best i've ever
had :)) i really enjoyed myself.

today is my happiest day in TEP.
shafinah DIY-ed a mug for me.
really pretty.

mummter surprised me with a bouquet
of flowers and adorable hand written
cards and ive got a lil of 'uncalled' for
stares.but gotta admit it was ok.
and adder got a jay chou CD in her newly
dyed hair.

yes,and amelia wished
'happy belated birthday' for 10 times.
thanks girl!haha!

now that i come to think of it
i fully understand the true essence of
this phrase that kym said...
'forgetting what you already have just
because you don't have something else'

theres so much more stuff for me to
appreciate and be gratified about
rather than other trivial matters
of the heart.

God bless!

thanks for the cards and flowers mummter
it really shocked me
super sweet of you
shall sleep with the flowers tonight
and thanks for taking the trouble to
get up and send me your wishes.

adder,thank you for your jay chou cd
i will listen till my ears emit smoke
or i will memorise the songs and
sing for you.

shafinah,believe me i really like
your DIY mug
its so special and pretty
i placed on my workdesk.

was off to sentosa today!
it was enjoyable because...

fanny wanni and ziling were there

we caught a monkey show
we went kayaking (its SO fun)

and...

we saw chen han wei and his
gay friends :))

and the last thing that made
my day complete and stupefied
was a special powerpoint slides
from kym!

thanks for taking the time to
do up so many slides.considering
that you have got your exams
and essays to do.

tsk tsk
mr no. 8 in the newman
football team
...
...
not bad leh.

'ogling aussie boys in yellow tights'
lols

BBQ at darryl's house
it was pretty fun
but it wouldnt be fun
without the sweeties from
MK0406.

thanks for the presents
darryl christine poh choo bee ling
and zhisian! :))

pooed in the toilet just now
and the two consecutive loos
beside me were doing the same
thing too.

ive found 2 'new impromptu friends'
in addition to desiree and
mrs balakrishnan.lols

another 6 hours to go before the
BBQ at darryl's house.
almost the whole class is coming
cant wait man,at last there is a
gathering for the whole class.

thanks for the wonka,huiying!
hahaha :)

HAPPY 18TH BELATED BIRTHDAY DARRYL!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY DAWN!
HAPPY PLAYING WITH THE DRIVER'S TOES MUMMTER!

thank you for the gifts
fanny,wanni and ziling :))

saw shuhua at orchard station.
what a coincidence!
wo men zhen you yuan.

waiting for the 76 snapshots to be
downloaded from fanny.
the process of the 76 great shots
is stupendous so is the size of the file
170703KB.lols.
big file man i tell you.

and i just gave up waiting.

inclusive of candid shots all the way
from cineleisure
the ramen was super spicy.shiok!
to flagging for cab and to esplanade.

the props display at esplanade was
jazzy vintage looking and motley.
and it looks something like this
...


-the trishaw ladies-

-the chopsticks ladies-

-the slippers aunties-

The walls came up as the thoughts went down
To the hush of disparity
Sure we know the problem lies
With some insecurities
But we'll never see eye to eye
As long as our tongues are tied
And we'll be seen as one
Until we find love

In a moment it could happen
we could wake up and be laughing
In a moment it could happen
We could forgive and be happy

It's a shame our world responds to life
As a puzzle in disguise
I wish our course would lead us toward
The peace and loving kind
But we'll never walk hand in hand
Until we let old wounds mend
And we'll never sing songs as one
Until we find love

In a moment some wisedom could be learned
In a moment new voices could be heard
In a moment we could make heads turn
In a moment we could change

i tried posting a comment in a
live journal.

in response to a 'rejection' of
my message,this was what i got..
Please confirm you are a human below

thank you.how creative is that.

one of the few sensible songs
thats so real and down-to-earth
compared to those love songs
like you yearning for me,i yearning
for you kind.you know that sort.

if you wanna find your soulmate
lets hope that he/she is someone
who will...(look at what follows)

adam sandler's i wanna grow old with you

I wanna make you smile,
whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
Oh, all i wanna do, is grow old with you.
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches,
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh, it could be so nice, growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold,
need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control.

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink,
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you.
I wanna grow old with you...

and so,other activities includes:
.pillow fight
.singing kbox
.making silly faces
.playing 'chopsticks'
.soccer yes?
(shouting 'referee kayu')
.blahblah

*to be continued

Poetry of politics and lost entities
Government is loneliness on this we agree
High are the angels and low I decree
Love only burns when fueled by belief

Home, welcome home
Take a little walk, take a little walk right through our
Home, this is home
Take a little walk, take a little walk right through our... home

Climb up the mountains then slide to the seas
Beauty adores us on this we agree
God is a witness and God is a tease
Pick up your faith, yeah, everybody come with me

sigh.. ever since TEP i realised that
somehow i have been deprived of
fortitude and firmness of purpose;
purpose of life. school.relationships
(sounds sucidal but nah )

and the best part, i dont know why
it just hits me

even the slightest thing that comes
to me,i will get edgy.being cooped
up in the small cell of the call center
is so shitty.

like some pregnant woman having
post natal depression...

feels as if whatever that happens in
machine stops is coming alive
(cos my vell is hexagonal?)
but its sedantary.no purpose.

but i pray that i will adapt to it
asap(WIP).its lucky that there's val
otherwise things here would be
insipid.

and im glad that whenever i read
your blog.i find purpose,meaning in
something that i cant define,kym.
im so glad :))

hope i'll be better!

TEP officially starts today,starting
was kind of bored.taking the same
old monotonous and all but everything
was so much better after the roleplay
aint that bad at all.time flies over here.

after school was so high la.met almost
half of the class there;waited for us.
haha!how sweet of them.i miss all of
them.gave san jie a big bear hug.
didnt see mrs balakrishnan today
sigh.miss 0406

i miss those working days in police
cantonment complex.the security
guards.the napping.the prints.
kelvin.francis.last but not least!
christine's ah lao and her 'yogurt'

had dinner with penny tonight
haha!had a ball of a time laughing
aiya that girl never fail to make me
laugh with her super expressive face

lols.went to her place and sat a while.
you take super good care of your health
yeah.ho ho!mark chay saw your profile?
MICHEAL OWEN SAW MINE
okie la,believe you :p

desiree..my materialistic daughter
*hiaks.. i want to see your ah gua
act again!!!SO ENTERTAINING
i wanna laugh till my insides burst

kym ah!!where are you?dont play
hide and seek with me.come out
of melbourne to spore and play
with me.

lols.ask your friends to come too.
ty.yvonne.mario.lucky.eugene.
yuichi.daisuke.hendri.clement.
the more the merrier.yes,
and bjorn too.

man,i miss you la sayang.
wish you well in your assignements
and exams.must have enough
sleep.dont always burn midnight
oil.take care!

just back from bangkok yesterday
went for TEP briefing today for CRM.
things seems pretty different.in fact
very different.man,im getting the jitters.
everyday 0830-1800.

got acquainted with people from other
classes.they are nice people.then met
up with kaishi irene and ah di sao for
lunch.irene will be at tanjong pagar
most of the time.sometimes at lvl 4.

hope TEP would be fun.
ha ha ha!

what a queer thing.

when i reached home today
i realised i miss bangkok
and the hotel and those many
nice dreams i had there!

what a funny thing.

just 6 days and 5 nights but
somehow a small part of my
heart and mind is tethered
to bangkok.

or maybe its jet-lag?

woke up early in the morning
took the BTS to sathorn where
there is a river cruise that takes
us to chao praya river.cost about
100 bahts(SGD4)

went to this renowned temple
called wat poh.its reputable for
the humongous reclining buddha.
what a sight.had the traditional
massage in the massge school over
there.damn shiok!

met this australian couple,
alan and julie from queensland
they are nice modest and humble
though they looked well to do.

very inquisitive folks who are
are drawn to the sights history
and cultures of bangkok and
singapore.

they asked about the seperation
of singapore and malaysia etc.
lols.now i know why lee kuan yew
and singapore is so popular.

though singapore is small but
she's powerful like a chilli padi
im so proud to be a singaporean!
lols.

later in the night went to MBK
for dinner.ordered something
that i shouldnt,fried noodles
with bamboo shoots.the smell
kind of put me off cos it was
overpowering.

shopped for a while and
managed to get a white capri
had this can of thai milk coffee
yummy and refreshing.

next headed for patpong.
the night market have limited
variety and all those clubs are
the same la.girls dressed in skimpy
outfits dancing.nothing much la.

spent almost the whole morning in
chatuchak.walked quite a bit.thought
my legs were going to give way.
seriously you can cover the clothes
section only if you go there twice.

many good buys there. better still if
you bargain.could get almost everythin'
you want there.towards the end was
too tired to look around.didnt bother
to browse.just have a glimpse here and
there.

saw quite a few of fine-featured thai
chinese blokes.then kana sai they
dress like girls.wasted la.hmmm,
apparently they do not like girls
becos' that means they will be
facing competition.lols.

went to erawan shrine to pray in the
morning;the famous four-faced-buddha
later went chitlom central departmental
store.the prices over there are on a par
with spore.

had swensens at siam discovery centre
its so much cheaper than spore about
half the price or so.

*shakes head
saw two teenage boys at a corner...
some hanky panky going on la.

dropped by siam square.its super
crowded with those teenagers.
didnt manage to shop becos it was
jam packed.its like bugis street
but a few stories high(and like a maze)

dropped at on nut station and went to
tesco lotus.its something like carrefour
and the clothes there are nice good
quality and cheap.bought quite a few
stuff over there.

had dinner at the food court.went to
a night market.got this long sleeve top
from this store tended by a transvestite
(ah gua).he was SO happy that we
bought something from him.

well i dunno really know how to
put it down in words...but he/she
behaves a bit coquettishly.

his face caked with make up was
beaming. a twinkle in his eyes.
the notes in the grip of his finely
manicured and polished nails.
ohhhh..so niang.lols.but he's nice la.

arrived in bangkok in the late morning
traffic jams over there are horrid esp.
during weekdays.then headed for the
guesthouse which we booked.the locality
isnt exceptional so we left our stuff there
and it was time for...

HOTEL HUNTING!

took the BTS skytrain which make things
so much more convenient.and its CHEAP.
100 bahts tourist pass for the whole day;
unlimited rides.went to have a look at MBK
lots of shops but i prefer those markets.

we were fortunate to meet kind souls who
helped us on our way.esp the taxi driver
he spent 3 hours driving us to and fro

it was through him we got to stay in
this hotel,royal parkview.though a little
old it looks grand.

the room is pretty comfortable and the
bed is soooo comfortable.lols.the funny
thing is that i never fail to have sweet
dreams during my 5 nights' stay there!

now i know why people just love
fridays.TGIF!marks the end of
a week of work. feels so good!

had dinner with penny today at
thai express after that went to
watch a band performance by
this local band,modern lipsticks

the drummer is soooooo damn
good.the bassists too.but the
singer was way too bashful la.
the amplifications...WOW

there's this song i heard from
the perfect ten on the ride back
home.its play by james/david
banner(cant rmb la).just sent
me to fits of laughter.cos' its bad.

work have been enjoyable so far
seven more working days to go
then its time for bangkok.good!

mummter is sick.got the bug :/
hope she recovers soon!

i believe in you even if there are
doubts that fills your mind
68 more days to go...

God Bless!

how should i say it?
hmm..impressive i guess.

thats when i heard that a
thirteen year old went up
to switchfoot after their
concert and said,"you saved me"

apparently this bloke was
near suicidal but after listening
dare you to move he refrained

WOW!

God bless!

latest news update on the
grisly find of the horror
the happened at orchard
mrt yesterday.

the victim was a twenty-six
filipina maid and the suspect
was also a filipina maid aged
twenty-nine.

man this is scary.three of
the similar body-dissected
murder case happened
all in one year!

Nickelback:Photograph

its awesome(to me at least)

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red,
And what the hell is on Joey's head?

This is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew he ever went without
The second floor's hard for sneaking out

This is where I went to school
Most of the time I had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should I come back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh, oh God I...
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found a photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Remember the old arcade?
Blew every dollar that we ever made,
The cops hated us hangin out,
They said somebody went and burned it down.

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we'd know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since God knows when

Oh oh oh, oh God I...
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it

I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
too hard to leave it

If I could relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Every time I do it makes me laugh
Every time I do it makes me

pooh to piglet:
thank you for the lovely
kinder surprise and thanks
for making my day with the
change of phone language
and wallpaper!!!

i was browsing through the photos
when it suddenly struck me why i
took so long to view them seems
like i cant coordinate too well.

then i realised that i was processing
this in my head "right palm,left palm"
even brought my palm to my face

help!

wonder what that fag is doing
in his 'house' you know.eating
caviar.posing on his lawn for
reporters?

really pray for those people in
america, new orleans.
the situation over there is
bad.devastating i would say.

two dozen premature babies,
children and teenagers stricken
with cancer have to be flown
out of new orleans cos there is
no electricity in the hospital.

its saddening.parents dont
even have a clue where their
kids are.

God bless the people!

it seems like i only get to blog on
fridays and weekends.

yeah superstar.weilian won!! :)
but both are winners.in fact the
last four who got through are!

as always work is fantastic
considering that we read
magazines.music turned on.
vcds screening.what say you?
wont be surprised if we get fired

talked a lot of crap.really crap!
most of it come from desiree.
some from christine.shes not
that quiet afterall.lols.so much
good time spent.

mummter gave me an awful
nick.its called 'ha bi ren' dont
like it but never mind.its part
of the joke :)

i love THAT face of hers [>__< ]
never fail to put me into a
fit of laughter.

work wouldnt be fun without
you auntie mabel and christine
love ya!

oh yes the security guards are
so sweet and nice.never fail to
greet us 'miss PTDs'.even offered
to give us our pass with our fav
numbers!

eighty eight days to your return

God bless!

Train
Drops of Jupiter

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you
Even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself

And did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And did you fall for a shooting star
Fall for a shooting star
And are you lonely looking for yourself out there

kym ng.

when i read your mail.damn
freaking happy for you.could
imagine myself clapping and
prancing around like some
idiot in the room.lols.

at last there is closure!still
friends and no harm is done
really admire your guts la.glad
that the letter got to you!hope it
brought you some surprise/joy/...

been working for the past week
its really cold.two jackets aint
warm enough.but the job isnt bad
at all.its all about the temperature!

went for a friend's church play,
two exits,with penny today
its at some theatre-like place
called cornerstone.it was really
nice.awesome i would say

the people are very nice and
friendly.feel absolutely comfortable
(except for some parts) talked
pretty much about conversion
with penny.

didnt know we have something
in common!oh yes!damn
embarassing today la!board the
wrong shuttle bus
(apparently full of senoir citizens)

God bless!

haha!ive got a job!today was the
second day.its pretty slack and
flexible.the people in charge are
nice.real nice.mummter you
should know la huh :) f_____?

still can listen to mp3 while typing
the stuff la.though the room is
freezing cold.no one is there to
supervise us.only me and desiree
are in the huge coldroom.

talked a lot of crap.past.guys.what
we gonna do after poly and stuff.
most importantly...acted silly in
front of the camera.crazy us!
fun man!

had dinner at paragon's ding tai
feng!haha!all thanks to mummter
and her mummy and uncle.lols.
the food was nice.
SUPER FULL

working:no swimming and
gyming :/ but nvm gyming
tmr!oh yeah wedding crashers
is super farny.watched it twice!


God bless!

many stuff running through my
thick skull and it really suck.
suck BIG time.

will you still place great faith
in someone when he time and
time again betray the faith and
trust you hold in him...
(though he is oblivious)

im not too sure about that
its just so fucked up
tell me.

God bless!

reminiscing...

he quoted an example

the train of thoughts i was so tempted
to say right smack in his face

me: could it be me?
its so apt!sounds like me.
just that im serious but you're not

'even the doubt that fills my mind'
i can see it but sometimes i rather
not becos' of the consequences
to bear.

and its all worthless now
lols
kym you should know how this laughter sound

exams are over
HOORAY!
went to town with mummter
today.shes so nice today
(tsk tsk share the 100 bucks k?)

spent quite a bit
a pair of jeans and shorts and
makan.heart pain la.but never
mind should reward myself
after years of mugging

cant wait for sunday!
fireworks here we come
cant wait for tuesday!
sakae with the pang family
i love you!

cant wait for your answer kym!
study hard hor and stop
going to too much movies huh
hee..lols.tc!

p.s:i dreamt we had the same dream.

God bless!

I AM DETERMINED AND RESOLUTE


(repeated to the power of infinity)

kym i dont know why


but ...


I LOVE READING YOUR BLOG


anyhow good luck!

i'm determined and resolute.sure i
am.to forget and carry on.to let go.
i pray that God will give me the
strength to.

im afraid of missing opportunities.
but certain stuff are just meant to
be.to be precise-fated.

i shall pray for you too,my prideful lil'
amina.that you have the courage to
tell or to keep it in you.i know it
bothers the heart.

God bless!

two papers are down and three more
to go.haha.thats cool.im sure we'll be
enjoying the two months in no time.
hmmm hope to find a kinergarten
to work in but neh...*shrugs

went to recruit express today check
out for some job application then
kinokuniya to get a book so into
reading books now.

haha guess the book would help
there's certain things and people to
' let go '.i've promised myself.

been grateful for the many little things
that happened. little bubbly girl etc

kym you get what i mean la.lol.
really really meant a lot.love you!
hope alls well for you back there in
aussie.thanks for being there amina :)

hey the master up there! thank you
so much for everything you gave.
love you lots!

thang gyu fog kuday mugter
ghings gill walk gout find
gotta puk gam efforg.jia you!
the caucasian guy was ohhh lala

hmmm..kamisah is feeling real bad
hey girl if you are reading my blog
do take care.if you wanna talk or
anything i give you my ears.lols
(not literally)

God bless!